Melina posted a brand new blog on her WWE Universe profile this morning, titled “I’M BACK!”
It’s a great read, so be sure to check it out. You can read the blog in it’s entirety below :
I’M BACK!
Saturday, August 7, 2010, 08:37 AM ESTI’m back and it is an unbelievable feeling!!!!! I have so much love, appreciation and gratitude for everything… Everyone. I’m always going to take in every single moment I can and treasure this all.
I originally wanted to tell all of you that I didn’t want to say much. I can say and write all the words I want…. say how I’m getting the title back and how I’m going to show the world what wrestling means to me. All of it is true and I love telling all of you what is in my heart, but I rather show you. I am NOT going to be all talk. I am going to go out there and give you everything I can. To create magic and to keep improving.
This has been a crazy journey for me. I look back and am amazed at all the stuff I have been through to get to this point. The negativity, the rejection, the jealousy and the ridicule. I was told I wouldn’t make it and I was never going to be a decent wrestler. Whether I am or not is a matter of opinion I suppose but the fact is I have reached this point against all odds.
I don’t know if others experience this in wrestling but for me it definitely was a test physically and emotionally. There has been moments where I wonder “Should I be here? What am I doing? Can I do this? Am I strong enough? What is going on here? Is this actually happening? Am I in the twilight zone?”or “WHY is this happening to me?” It’s been an insane ride but all of it has brought me such joy, taught me so much and has made me that much stronger.
Again, I would never change the difficulty of the path that lead me here. I feel when people get things easily, It can fade just as easily. I believe those who work hard for something can last because whether it’s a job, a relationship, a dream…. It takes just as much work to keep things as it is to get it.
As I have said on Twitter, the night I came back I sat backstage listening to the people walk in as the doors opened for the show. I heard the arena come alive and I was so excited and nervous. I knew I was going to give the world everything I am…. and I thought about how I watched wrestling for so long as a fan at home; I thought about the first time I stepped into a wrestling ring…. how I worked Indy shows…. went to try outs for the WWE hoping to one day work for them. Then, the day I found out I got a contract; the first time I debuted in the WWE, had a match, won a title, competed in my first Wrestlemania….. all the moments that led me to now; all those moments that gave me butterflies. The night of my return I got the butterflies again. That moment was just as meaningful as all the others if not more.
I was a quiet girl who lived in California waiting to live a “regular” life and never imaged doing all the things I am doing now. I am overwhelmed with emotion right now. I am amazed and so grateful. No matter what happens from here on, I have done more than I ever dreamed of, But I won’t stop here. I am going to keep climbing this mountain. We can’t stop here. Let’s see what more we can do!!
To all of you who have blessed my life, Thank you. I know I say that so much…. Thank you. I honestly don’t want it to sound repetitive but I truly mean it each time I say it…. I truly want to thank you. From the bottom of my heart.
The True and Original Most Dominant Diva in the WWE,
Melina